hey. hello. hi.
been about 3 months... yikes. just haven't really been in the mood to write updates about my life or whatever. not really feelin it lately.
anyway. school is rough. it will be over this week, though... i got a summer job, as a counselor for a day camp. how terrifying! it is an inherently extroverted job and i am so, so terribly introverted. does not feel like it will go well, but we will see.
i have a lot of late assignments, but i can't bring myself to start working on them. i don't know why. i guess depression or adhd or laziness or whatever. i just want to lay down and watch stupid media forever.
my most recent obsession (that i am still currently in) is it's always sunny in philadelphia. what a phenomenal show !!!! i especially love mac and charlie. mac in particular has a very special place in my heart and i am very much in love with him. this is very unfortunate but oh well... the heart want what it wants!!!
i actually finished the show YESTERDAY (season 15 and all) and my god do i miss it. i think i will just rewatch it because i am very much not ready to give them up. it is so crazy how when i first watched it i thought to myself "i will never enjoy this show" and now here i am, batshit crazy over these stupid characters and their dumb little lives. i love them so much. i miss them so much. thank god there's a podcast, but even that's not enough. ugh!!!
i am still playing a lot of minecraft, though iasip took over that for a while. there's this one little server i play on where i write lore and edit little articles for it (i know it's silly but it's so cute) and i absolutely adore the community. definitely gives me a nice sense of purpose, knowing there's people that "depend" on me, even if it's just for a lore write-up about a dragon (which i did write, by the way, about the pyrausta).
i do not really engage in jerma content anymore. like, not even unconsciously; even when i think "hey, i should watch some jerma!" i end up disinterested in whatever i pull up. guess i'm burned out of him, whoops. oh well. still think he's a cutie, though!
do not talk to internet friend anymore. i was kind of an ass to them our last few days of chatting, and then we kind of just. stopped. sometimes i regret how it ended (this was over a month ago now) but at the same time... i don't really care. maybe that makes me a shitty person but honestly... doesn't do me any good to dwell on it.
time passes very quickly now and it kind of scares me. feels like i've done absolutely nothing productive (which is probably true, to be fair) but i hate the feelings so much. i haven't changed a bit (i'd even go so far as to argue i've gotten worse) and that fucking SUCKS! i blink and a week has gone by; i blink again and it's been an entire month. i can't remember what i did yesterday or the day before. nothing to be proud of, i'm sure.
eh. i'm done writing this. see ya, folks.
